A Mom

I know, I know, 2 posts in one night? Yes! 
I started this post during this past week and am just now getting around to finishing it. This week I have been in total awe of my little babies. You see, last Sunday was Mother's Day. I wanted to post this that day, but there was just not enough time...plus I wanted to soak up the day being a "mom". There are things they don't tell you about being a mom. They say you learn as you go. I believe that with my whole heart. It is the hardest, most terrifying job in the entire world. There are days you want to crawl up in a corner with ear plugs and cry. There are days you feel like a complete failure, wondering why God has allowed you to even become a mom. There are days you don't understand what you are doing wrong and don't know how to respond. BUT there are also days, days which outnumber the "bad" days, that you feel like the luckiest person in the world because all because of those precious little people called your children. Those days are the ones that you want to remember and never want to end...You want to pause time and just bask in the moment. It is on those days you fall on your knees, thanking God for the blessings and joy those little ones bring to your life. 
Sunday was one of those days. To wake up to those 2 little faces just smiling from ear to ear, telling me how their daddy got them donuts and brought me flowers, was the best feeling in the world. They were quite proud of themselves. Hayden kept asking if I liked my card and my heart melted every time. 
I kept telling my mom throughout the day I swear those kids knew it was Mother's day because they couldn't have been more perfect...everything from church, to a late lunch and late nap to dinner. I couldn't have been more thankful. 
Throughout the day I just kept thanking God for these precious gifts He has given to me. He has allowed me to be their mother. I pray continually that God would allow me to be the mother that my kids look to as a role model...a Godly role model. I pray that God grants me the wisdom I need and gives me the grace I don't deserve. I pray that I am able to lead my 2 (soon to be 3) children in a way that pleases Him.